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I had several months ago been on a tear in reviewing individual CDs in an extensive classic rock ‘n’ roll series (now classic, then just our music). A lot of those reviews had been driven by the artwork which graced the covers of each item, both to stir ancient memories and reflect that precise moment in time, the youth time of the now very, very mature (nice sliding over the age issue, right?) baby-boomer generation who lived and died by the music. And who fit in, or did not fit in as the case may, to the themes expressed in those artwork scenes. Here we have the latter, the not fit in part, for this reviewer anyway. The latter is the case here although the cover art was simplicity itself- the rear view of an aerodynamically-contoured rear fin (yes, fin) of a “boss” (yes, boss) 1950s automobile of unknown provenance (but we can guess, right?)
Yes, and that slight description is all that is needed for those of us who came of age in the “golden age of the automobile”in the speed and thrills-craving aftermath of World War II when restless Americans, young and old, more young as it turned out, went into spasms over the latest “boss” (yes, boss) vehicle coming out of Detroit, the motor capital of the world then. Of course the cars kind of sorted themselves out- you wouldn’t, if you were young, dream of driving something that your father drove. So if you got his hand-me-down after he decided that he needed, just absolutely needed, that much more power in his automobile in order to keep up with the Joneses, you would move might and main in order to transform that old clunky dad car into a respectable tool. A rocket-like tool to fit the age, to ride and to ride with some sweet honey at your side, on those hot sticky, sultry summer nights down by the seaside, or at the drive-in, movie or for food, your choice.
Yes, and this is why even a mainly a not fit in no car boy like me, from a mainly no car family, could (and maybe still could) stare his eyes out over some boss of the bosses ’57 Chevy charging down the be-bop night boulevard, or a lanky turbo-driven long-line Lincoln, or a rebuilt Cadillac or a tear-up Thunderbird. Relics from a high cubic volume engine age when your twenty-nine cents a gallon gas took you about three feet per gallon. But still, come on now, they looked, well, boss.
Oh, yes, and of course you needed to amp up that boss wagon car radio, previously set exclusively to some father business news station (jesus), booming out the latest rock and roll hits about cars, especially West Coast car legends and their chicken runs, girls (east coast or west coast, hell, even the Mid-West), girls and boys in trouble, in love, out of love (ditto on that geography thing), chasing that sunset ocean-flecked dream. But mainly, when the dust settled, you had to worry about how and who was going to front that dough to get that new back chrome fender you just needed, absolutely needed, needed like crazy to keep up with the Jones’ son.
But on that boss car radio you were likely, very likely, to be cruising to (even if only riding shotgun in some buddy’s boss car cruising that boulevard looking for, what else, girls who just that moment might be in need of some seaside company, or wanted to go the drive-in, their choice) many of the tunes reviewed in that series. Stick-outs on this fin tail art beauty included: For Your Love, Ed Townsend; Silhouettes, The Diamonds; Somethin’ Else, Eddie Cochran (totally underrated in the classic rock scheme of things after he died in a car accident, naturally, especially his classic Summertime Blues that was a rite of passage each summer vacation); and, as always when you talk 1950s rock, the serious stuff, the serious riffing guitar stuff from the place where rock met the blues, Chuck Berry on Almost Grown, not his number one, A-list material but good in this company.
The Golden Age Of American Rock ‘n’ Roll: Volume 5,
Ace Records, 1995
Jake LeFleur (nee Jeanbon) had it bad, had it bad as
a man (oops, young man, boy) could have it for a girl (oops, young woman) and
still be able to breath, breath normally. And she, Marnie Capet she, the object
of one Jake LeFleur’s palsied breath, knew that hard fact, and depended on her ability
to keep Jake in that state. But before you say “dames what can you do with
them, or without them” like all of Jake’s corner boys whom he hung around with
in front of Jimmy Jakes Diner 9saidevery time they heard the latest installment of the Marnie leading Jake
by the nose saga hear her side. Then, perhaps, you will not worry so much about
the how and whys of Jake’s breathing.
Marnie, for all the world to know, for all the
important world to know in 1958 in Olde Saco, Maine, and that meant her
friends, her teenage friends, her girls, whom she hung around with in front of,
guess, Jimmy Jakes Diner, had been minding her own business when one Jake
LeFleur came swooping down on her. And she would swear on a stack of seven,
hell, seventy sealed bibles (as all her “corner girls” would attest to after they had heard the latest
installment of the Jake leading Marnie by the nose saga) that she had no
intention of finding herself riding in Jake’s ’55 two-toned souped-up Chevy
after a few minutes of Jake smooth talk. But she did, although she will also
swear, at least for public consumption, that she had a problem breathing when
she found herself in that position (or later more intimate positions, as she
would slyly allude to when describing her latest date with Jake.)
But at some point Jake, or maybe Marnie, it was
never clear discovered two things, one that Jake was crazier about Marnie that
she was about him, and more importantly ,two, Marnie was taking more than a few
peeks at a new boy in town, Bernie Albert, who if one can believe this, had
neither a car, hot or otherwise, and had not the least inclination to hang
around Jimmy Jakes Diner because he was crazy for the sea, and crazy for
writing stuff aboutthe sea once he
found the best spots over at Olde Saco Beach (naturally including the exclusive
teen hot spot ofSeal Rock). Bernie came
in like a breath of fresh air and before long one did not see Marnie Capet
riding, front seat riding, in any funny old ’55 Chevy. She was breathing the
sea air down at the beach after walking there with Bernie.
Now the tale turns back to Jake though, Jake of the
thousand chicken run victories, Jake of the hard boy corner boy society in
front of Jimmie Jakes Diner, spurned Jake. And before you wonder what hell our
boy Jake is going to rain down on one Bernie Albertfor “stealing “ his Marnieyou should know this. Not only do you not see
Marnie riding in that Chevy, that boss Chevy as anyone in town, anyone that
counted would tell you, meaning the habitués of Jimmy Jakes but you do not see
Jake riding around. If you can believe this, Jake was still carrying a big
torch for Marnie and had taken to his room to write her a letter begging her to
come back. And since he was not a scholar like Bernie, and since he wanted to
note her upcoming birthday he played the Tune Weavers’ Happy, Happy Birthday Baby
to help him through task, and settle his uneasy breathing.Stay tuned. And while you are waiting check
out this volume to see if Bernie has a chance to select something to counter
Jake’s move.
I had several months ago been on a tear in
reviewing individual CDs in an extensive classic rock ‘n’ roll series (now
classic, then just our music). A lot of those reviews had been driven by the
artwork which graced the covers of each item, both to stir ancient memories and
reflect that precise moment in time, the youth time of the now very, very
mature (nice sliding over the age issue, right?) baby-boomer generation who
lived and died by the music. And who fit in, or did not fit in as the case may,
to the themes expressed in these artwork scenes. Here we have the latter, the
not fit in part, for this reviewer anyway.
The1964 art cover piece I want to comment on here
had as its subject an illustration of a high school girl (the guy, the heads
turnedguy backdrop used let you know,
just in case you were clueless, that the rock scene was directed, point blank,
at high school students, high school students, especially girls, with
discretionary money to buy hot records, or drop coins in the local juke box),
or rather since her top part was not shown her high heel sneakers (Chuck Taylor
red high tops, for sure, no question, although there is no trademark present no
way that they can be some knock-offs in 1964, no way, I say). The important
thing, in any case, is the sneakers, and that slightly shorter than school
regulation, 1964 school regulation, dress, a dress that presages the mini-skirt
craze that was then just on its way from Europe. Naturally said dress and
sneakers, sneakers, high- heeled or not, red or not, hell, Chuck Taylors or
not, against the mandatory white tennis sneakers on gym days and low-heel pumps
on other days, is the herald of some new age.
And, as if to confirm that new
breeze, that sniff of a breeze even those who did not fit in could sense, in
the background scouring out her properly lonely prudish window, a sullen,
prudish (oops, I said that already) old dame, an old dame who probably never
was a jitterbug dame, never a raise her skirt dame, when her generation had their
day, was looking on in parent/teacher/cop/priest/authorities distaste and
dismay. She, the advance guard, obviously, of that parentally-driven reaction
to all that the later 1960s stood for to us baby-boomers, as the generations
fought out their epic battles about the nature of the world, our world or
theirs.
But see that is so much “wave of future” just
then because, sullen old prudish dame or not, what Ms. Hi-heel sneakers (and
dress, yah, don’t forget that knee-showing dress and those guys dreams about
what that meant, meant even for not fit ins) is preening for is those previously
mentioned guys who are standing (barely) in front of said apartment entrance and
showing their approval, their approval in the endless boy and girl meet game.
And these guys are not just of one kind, they
are cool faux “beat” daddy guys, tee-shirted corner boy guys, and well, just
average 1964- style average plaid shirt, black chino loafer guys out of some American Graffiti dream guys. Now the
reality of Ms. Hi-heel sneakers (and a wig hat on her head) proved to be a
minute thing and was practically forgotten in the musical breeze that was
starting to come in from Europe (British invasion led by the Beatles and the
Rolling Stones) but it was that harbinger of change that the old dame (prudish assumed)
dreaded and we, teenagers, especially we teenagers of the Class of 1964, were
puzzled by. All we knew for sure, at least some of us knew, was that our generation,
at least for a moment, was going to chase a few windmills, and gladly. Little
did we know, and perhaps it would not have changed our course not it should
have, that we would fight, some of us anyway, a forty plus year cultural war based
on that slight breeze we sniffed.
That is the front story, the story of the new
breeze coming, but the back story is that the kind of songs that were on that
CD with that British invasion coming full blast were going to be passé very
soon. Moreover, among my crowd, my hang-out crowd, my hang-out guy and girl
crowd of guys who looked very much like those guys pictured on the artwork, if
not my school crowd (with a slightly different, more nerdy look) also dug the
folk scene, the Harvard Square at weekend night, New York City Village every
once in a while folk scene, the Dylan, Baez, Van Ronk, Paxton, Ochs, etc. scene
which was still in bloom and competitive (although that scene, that folk scene
minute, ironically, would soon also be passé).
Thus 1964 was a watershed year for a lot of
the genres, really sub-genres, featured on that CD. Like the harmony-rich girl
groups (The Supremes, Mary Wells, The Shangri-Las, Martha and the Vandellas,
Betty Everett) and the surfer boy, hot-rod guys of blessed neighborhood memory
(Ronnie and the Daytonas, The Rivieras, and The Beach Boys, a little). But it
was also a watershed year for the guys pictured in the artwork (and out in the
neighborhoods, the hard-bitten working-class neighborhoods where I came of age).
Some, like a couple of guys down the end of my street now with names chiseled in black
marble down in Washington, would soon be fighting in Vietnam, some moving, for
a time anyway, to a commune to get away from it all, and others would be
raising holy hell about that war, the need for social justice and the way
things were being run in this country.
And Ms. Hi-heel sneakers? Maybe, just maybe,
she drifted, mini-skirt and moccasins, or jeans and buckskin jacket, headband
to hold her hair (and head) on, name changed to Butterfly Swirl, or some such, into
that San Francisco for the Summer of Love, 1967 version, night, going barefoot
into that good night. And maybe, just maybe she ran into my old merry prankster
yellow brick road friend, or his one of his ilk, Peter Paul Markin, and
survived to tell the tale. I like to think so anyway.
Watershed year or not, there were some
serious non-British invasion stick-outs in that CD. Under The Boardwalk (great harmony), The Drifters; Last Kiss, Frank Wilson and The Cavaliers; Dancing In The Streets (lordy, lordy, yes), Martha and the
Vandellas; Leader Of The Pack (what a
great novelty song and one that could be the subject of a real story in my
growing up neighborhood filled with motorcycle boys looking for kicks, and
respect), The Shangri-Las; Hi-Heel
Sneakers, Tommy Tucker (thanks for the lead-in, Tommy), and, the boss song
of the teen dance club night, worthy of its own sketch or illustration, no
question, no challenge, no competition, Louie,
Louie by the Kingsmen.
Tom Rush-Eric Von Schmidt Lyrics from
an old traditional song
Chorus:
Wasn't that a mighty storm
Wasn't that a mighty storm in the morning
Say, wasn't that a mighty storm
Blew all the people away
Well, Galveston had a sea wall
Meant to keep the water down
High tide from the ocean
Sent water over Galveston
Chorus
Yeah, year was 1900
Fifty long years ago
Death came walking on the water that day
Death calls, you gotta go
Now the trumpets, they sounded warning
Said it's time to leave this place
But no one thought about leaving town
Til death stared them in the face
Chorus [ Lyrics from:
http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/james_taylor/wasnt_that_a_mighty_storm.html
]
Right then the sea started boiling
A thing that no ship could stand
I thought I heard a captain crying out
Somebody save a drowning man
They had two trains loaded
With people trying to leave town
Tracks gave way to the water now
And all of those people drowned
Chorus
I said the year was 1900
Fifty long years ago
Death came walking on the water
Death calls, you gotta go
I said Death, your hands are clammy
You got them on my knee
You came and threw a stone at my mother
And now you're coming after me.
Chorus
Chorus
Funny he, Adam Evans, thought
as he laid in his toss and turn early morning Seals Rock Inn, San Francisco
bed, as the rain poured down in buckets, literally buckets, at his unprotected
door, the winds were howling against that same door, and the nearby sea was
lashing up its fury how many times the sea stormy night, the sea fury tempest
day, the, well, the mighty storm anytime, had played a part in his life. He was
under no circumstances, as he cleared his mind for a think back, a think back,
that was occupying his thoughts more and more of late, trying to work himself
into a lather over some metaphorical essence between the storms that life had
bestowed on him and the raging night storm. No way, too simple. Rather he was
just joy searching for all those sea-driven times, times when a storm, a
furious storm like this night or maybe just an average ordinary vanilla storm
passing through and complete in an hour made him think of his relationship with
his homeland the sea and with its time for reflection. And so on that toss and
turn bed he thought.
He thought first and mainly about
how early the sea came into his life, almost from birth down at those ragged
slopes around Germantown where he lived growing up and was tumbled into the sea
early. And learned the power of the sea early when one winter storm night
Mother Nature played a trick on her seaward brethren and tried to bring them
home to her bosom all in one lashed-up swoop as the water came right up to that
hovel (really a cottage, maybe slightly bigger) door and the lot of them only
reached higher ground in a split second before a big foam-flecked (aren’t they
always when they come in that hard, fast and furious) wave crashed that cottage
down. And later, childhood later, a few years later anyway, when he, bravo he,
decided, yes, decided that the impeding summer storm he could sense coming
would be no deterrent to his taking that log on the beach and using it to swim
to China , or some such place, on the current. And losing the log in the
churning waters almost drowned, except for the screams of his panic beach-bound
brother sounding the alarm for help and some Madonna savior swimmer,
beach-bound too, came and swooped him up before he went down for the third
time. Don’t tell Ma, jesus, don’t tell Ma.
Or that night, that funny
night (funny night in retrospect, then and now retrospect) when he, his buddy
Will and his girl, and she, she Terry Wallace,sat in Will’s father-bought high school car, a ’59 Dodge, “making out”
while the sea churned up around them at old Nippo Beach just up from home
Germantown and the police, spotting the car and the fix, came and rescued them
rescued them while they were in, ah, compromising positions (you figure it out,
he just laughed his thought laugh) because in the throes of love they had not
realized that they were in a couple of feet of sea water that had splashed over
some poor man-made seawall built against Mother’s angers.
Or that day, that wind- swept
day, when his world fell apart, the day when Diana had left him, left him for
good, left him for another man, another non-sea driven man, after she called it
quits when spending a couple of monthsup in that storm-ravagedMaine
cottage where she, quote, was tired as hell of the sea, of the wind, of the
stuff that the wind did to her sensitive skin, and, and, tired of him playing
out some old man of the seas, some man against nature thing with her in his
train.
Or that time later with Sarah
when the winter seas once again bore down on them in Marblehead coming up over
a double seawall, damn a double sea walls, and almost touching their front
steps. And she too calling it quits, although not over another man, or over his
man and nature obsession, or over that breeched double sea-wall but just her
calling it Sarah quits. And he sorry, more than Diana sorry, when she left.
Or that Maine time a few
years back when a sudden winter storm came up the coast of Maine and he was
stranded for a couple of days when Mile Road was cut off and he finally knew
what it was like to be totally dependent on happenstance, on others, and, in
the end on his own devises.
Or tonight, the winds
blasting away, rain splashing down, left to his own devises, his own thoughts,
and just then he thought, that no, no he was wrong, he really was searching for
that metaphor, that metaphor, that mighty storm metaphor. that would sum up his
life.
There was a scourge in the
land, in the 1950s American land. No, not the dreaded but fatalistically
expected BIG ONE that would send old mother earth back to square one, or worst,
coming from the Russkies. Sure that was in the air and every school boy and
girl had their giggling tales of having to hide, hide ass up, under some desk
or other useless defense in air raid drill preparations for that eventually.
Sure, as well, the air stunk of red scare, military build-up cold war “your mommy
is a commie turns her in.” But that was not the day to day scare for every
self-respecting parent from Portland to the Pacific. That was reserved for the
deadly dreaded motorcycle scare that had every father telling his son to beware
of falling under the Marlon Brando sway and spiraling down to a life, a low
life of crime and debauchery (of course said son not knowing of the word, the
meaning of debauchery, until much later just shrugged his innocent shoulders).
More importantly every mother, every blessed mother, self-respecting or not
(with a gentle nod from Dad) warned off their daughters against this madness
and perversity.
Of course that did not stop
the sons from mooning over every Harley that rode the ride down Main Street,
Olde Saco (really U.S. Route One but everybody called it Main Street and it
was) or the daughters from mooning (and maybe more) over the low- riders
churning the metal on those bad ass machines. Even prime and proper Lily
Dumont, the queen of Saint Brigitte’s Catholic Church rectitude on Sunday and
wanna-be “mama” every other waking minute of late. And the object of her desire?
One “Motorcycle Bill,” the baddest low- rider in all of Olde Saco.
Now baddest in Olde Saco
(that’s up in ocean edge Maine for the heathens and others not in the know) was
not exactly baddest in the whole wide world, nowhere as near as bad as say
Sonny Barger and his henchmen outlaws- for- real bikers out in Hell’s Angels
Oakland as chronicled by Doctor Gonzo (before he was Gonzo), Hunter S. Thompson
in his saga of murder and mayhem sociological- literary study Hell’s Angels. But as much is in life
one must accept the context. And the context here is that in sleepydying mill town Olde Saco mere ownership,
hell maybe mere desire for ownership, of a bike was prima facie evidence of
badness. So every precious daughter was specifically warned away from
Motorcycle Bill and his Vincent Black Lightning 1952 (although no mother, and
maybe no daughter either, could probably tell the difference between that sleek
English bike and a big pig Harley). But MadameDumont felt no need to do so with her sweet sixteen Lily who, maybe,
pretty please maybe was going to be one of god’s women, maybe enter the convent
over in Cedars Of Lebanon Springs in a couple of years after she graduated from
Olde Saco High along with her Class of 1960.
But that was before, walking
home to Olde Saco’s French- Canadian (F-C) quarter, the Acre, on Atlantic
Avenue with classmate and best friend Clara Dubois, Lily heard the thunder of
Bill’s bike coming up behind them, stopping, Bill giving Lily a bow, and them
revving the machine up and doing a couple of circle cuts within a hair’s
breathe of the girls. Then just a suddenly he was off, and Lily, well, Lily was
hooked, hooked on Motorcycle Bill, although she did not know it, know it for
certain until that night in her room when she tossed and turned all night and
did not ask god, or any of his associates, to guide her in this matter.
One thing about living in a
sleepy old town, a sleepy old dying mill town, is that everybody knows
everybody’s business at least as far as any person wants that information out
on the public square. Two things are important before we go on. One is that
everybody in town that counted which meant every junior and senior class high
schooler in Olde Saco knew that Bill had made a “play” for Lily. And the buzz
got its start from none other than Clara Dubois who had her own hankerings
after the motorcycle man (her source of wonder though was more, well lets’ call
it crass than Lily’s, Clara wanted to know ifBill was build, build with sexual power like his motorcycle. She had
innocently, perhaps, understood the Marlon mystique). The second was that Bill,
other than his bike, was not a low life low- rider but just a guy who liked to
ride the roads free and easy. See Bill was a freshman over at Bowdoin and he
used the bike as much to get back and forth as to do wheelies in front of impressionable
teenage girls from the Acre.
One day, a few days after
their Motorcycle Bill “introduction,” when Lily and Clara were over at Seal
Rock at the end of Olde Saco Beach (not its real name but given it because it
was the local lovers’ lane and many things had been sealed there including a
fair share of “doing the do”) Bill came up behind them sans his bike. Now not
on his bike, without a helmet, and carrying books, books of all things, he
looked like any student except maybe a little bolder and a little less reserved.
He started talking to Lily and something in his demeanor attracted her to him.
(Clara swore, swore on seven bibles, that Lily was kind of stand-offish at
first but Lily says no.) They talked for
a while and then Bill asked Lily if she wanted a ride home. She hemmed and
hawed but there was just something about him that spoke of mystery (who knows
what Clara thought). She agreed and they walked a couple of blocks to where he
was parked. And there Lily saw that Vincent Black Lightning 1952 of her dreams.
Without a word, without anything done except to tie her hair back she climbed
on the back of the bike at Bill’s beckon. And that is how one Lily Dumont became
William Kelly’s motorcycle “mama.”
In The 1960s Time Of Fear And Loathing- The Movie-Hunter S. Thompson’s “Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas”
Fear And Loathing In Las
Vegas, starring Johnny Depp, based on the gonzo journalism of Doctor Hunter S.
Thompson.
Make no mistake I have read
everything of Hunter Thompson’s that I could get my hands on. I love Johnny
Depp as an actor. However, this film does a true disservice to both of their
talents. Johnny makes no sense as Hunter, although he was legitimate wild man Hunter’s
friend. More importantly, Fear and Loathing,
driven by stuff internally spinning in Thompson’s head, does not translate on
the screen as anything but a diffused and nonsensical homage to late
counter-cultural self-indulgence, drug division. Of the worse sort.
Thompson always claimed that
his literary attempt to use the tenets of ‘gonzo’ journalism in the book was a
failure. I disagree with that evaluation for the book but certainly not for the
film. Let us face it this is classic case of the film being very, very inferior
to the book, although the episodes and language hew fairly close to it. Please,
please read the book. And please, please read many times that little gem snippet
of his about his take on the high (and low) side of the 1960s experience, what
it meant to those who got caught up in the excitement and danger, and when he
could see the whole thing literally ebbing. Classic. You will also laugh and be
entertained by his drug-induced attempt to find the meaning of the American
experience in the post-World War II world. As for the film it will give you
nothing but fear and loathing.
In the first installment of this series of
sketches in this space provided courtesy of my old yellow brick road magical
mystery tour merry prankster fellow traveler, Peter Paul Markin, I mentioned,
in grabbing an old Bruce Springsteen CD compilation from 1998 to download into
my iPod that I came across a song that stopped me in my tracks, Brothers Under The Bridge. I had not
listened to or thought about that song for a long time but it brought back many
memories from the late 1970s when I did a series of articles for the now
defunct East Bay Eye (California East
Bay, naturally) on the fate of some troubled Vietnam veterans who, for one
reason or another, could not come to grips with “going back to the real world”
and took, like those a Great Depression generation or two before them, to the
“jungle”-the hobo, bum, tramp camps located along the abandoned railroad
sidings, the ravines and crevices, and under the bridges of California, mainly
down in Los Angeles, and created their own “society.”
The editor of the East Bay Eye, Owen Anderson, gave me that long ago assignment after
I had done a smaller series for the paper on the treatment, the poor treatment,
of Vietnam veterans by the Veterans Administration in San Francisco and in the
course of that series had found out about this band of brothers roaming the
countryside trying to do the best they could, but mainly trying to keep
themselves in one piece. My qualifications for the assignment other than
empathy, since I had not been in the military during the Vietnam War period,
were based simply on the fact that back East I had been involved, along with
several other radicals, in running an anti-war GI coffeehouse near Fort Devens
in Massachusetts and down near Fort Dix in New Jersey. During that period I had
run into many soldiers of my 1960s generation who had clued me in on the psychic
cost of the war so I had a running start.
After making connections with some Vietnam
Veterans Against The War (VVAW) guys down in L.A. who knew where to point me I
was on my way. I gathered many stories, published some of them in the Eye, and put the rest in my
helter-skelter files. A while back, after having no success in retrieving the
old Eye archives, I went up into my
attic and rummaged through what was left of those early files. I could find no
newsprint articles that I had written but I did find a batch of notes,
specifically notes from stories that I didn’t file because the Eye went under before I could round them
into shape.
The ground rules of those long ago stories
was that I would basically let the guy I was talking to give his spiel, spill
what he wanted the world to hear, and I would write it up without too much
editing (mainly for foul language). I, like with the others in this series,
have reconstructed this story as best I can although at this far remove it is
hard to get the feel of the voice and how things were said.
Not every guy I interviewed, came across,
swapped lies with, or just snatched some midnight phrase out of the air from
was from hunger. Most were, yes, in one way or another but some, and the one I
am recalling in this sketch from that time fits this description, had no real
desire to advertise their own hunger but just wanted to get something off their
chest about some lost buddy, or some event they had witnessed. I have presented
enough of these sketches both back in the day and here to not make a
generalization about what a guy might be hiding in the deep recesses of his
mind. Some wanted to give a blow by blow description of every firefight (and
every hut torched) they were involved in, others wanted to blank out ‘Nam
completely and talk of before or after times, as is the case here with the Francis
Allen Edwards, who wanted to talk about home and family, the home and family he
never fit in with, and the anguish that drove him to enlist in the Army to get
as he said “his head screwed on right.” Unfortunately that decision solved
nothing and he never did fit in. So all he wanted to do was have me print a
piece from him, as he said, in lieu of a letter, after he heard that his mother
had passed away to try to even things out. I like to finish up these introductions by
placing these sketches under a particular sign; no question Francis Allen
Edwards’ sign was that of “in lieu of a letter.” ************** To My Mother, Doris Margaret
Edwards, nee Ridley, In Lieu Of A Letter
I have been estranged from my
family for over fifteen years and therefore any memories, good or bad, are
colored by that fact. I did not attend my father Paul Edwards’ funeral as I was
out in a no address, no forwarding address ravine in Southern California. I
also missed my younger brother Kenneth’s funeral [he had died young of cancer
and had a history of mental problems] for the same reason and, along the way,
those of others in the family as well. Now I have missed my mother’s funeral.
This says more about me than anything I might offer as an excuse for past
circumstances. The time for that is now well past.
Last May [1979] when I
finally did get off my high horse and try to connect with the family again, or
at least find out what had happened to it and attempt to make my peace
Ann-Charlotte (Uncle Harold’s daughter) suggested that I write letters to my
family members (not to be delivered, of course) as the way to make my peace. I
took her up on that idea and wrote the letters.
My father I believe, as all
who knew him knew was his way, forgave me.After all I was one of his boys.Good or bad that was all he cared about.All my life I did a great wrong to that poor, hardworking man that I
will always have to carry with me. Although it is far too late let me say
something here publicly that I never told him but should have shouted from the
rooftops. Dad, I am proud that you were my father.My poor brother Kenneth, I fear, was much
less forgiving. He said he could have used my help during his life long
struggle against his demons within. I have to live with that knowledge as well.
So be it.
I did not write a letter then
to my mother because I believed that I still had a possibility of making things
right. To my regret I never got the chance. Once again, as has happened more
than a few times in my life, my timing was off and I was too late. I have now
written her a private letter that, along with those to my father and brother,
is consigned to oblivion. Like in my father’s case I have done my mother a
great wrong all my life. This too I will have to live with. My old memories
however, such as they are, can now be looked at with a greater fondness and
understanding of what they did for me.
If in my life I have reacted
to situations too absurdly or dishonestly rather than in an emotionally balanced
way don’t blame my mother. In her understated, and probably partially
unconscious, way she taught me to simply be truthful and to fight for what I
believed in. I have honored that wisdom more in the breech than in the
observance. However, I have gotten better at it. From the mist of memories I
remember two things that she always remarked on about me in a positive way- I
was always looking for that next mythical mountain to climb and that I was a
survivor. Well, she was right on both counts. And I am still at it. Thanks, Ma.
If all of this does not
reflect adequately the way I feel today- know this. Doris Margaret Edwards, nee
Ridley was my mother. I was her son. In the end, not without some terrible struggle,
I recognized that she was my mother.That too should have long ago been shouted from the rooftops. I hope
that in the end she recognized that I was her son.
Now she has gone to be
reunited with her beloved husband Paul, after years without his comfort, and
also with her son Kenneth. May they all rest in peace.
I have almost endlessly gone
on about the 1950s as being something like the golden age of the American
automobile. Not, by the way, just to note that many times in those years the
poor, dirt poor, Breslin family was without a car, golden age or not. That was
our hard luck and no special mercy need be shown on that account. But also to
note that the car craze extended right down to junior, a he junior in those
days, having maybe for the first in recorded history, recorded teen history,
the only history that counted among the corner boys, and wanna-be corner boys
of Olde Saco (that is up in ocean side Maine for the interested), the chance to
have his own “wheels” to rocket out in the ocean air night.
Usually that first car was a
Dad hand-me-down once he, Dad that is, got tired of the old heap (old heap being
in those cheap car days maybe four years old) and instead of trading the heap in
for the latest step-up like a shiny two-toned Buick he gave the keys to junior.
This ritual, and make no mistake that it was a ritual, became a virtual rite of
passage as the1950s flew into the1960s as a sign that some families had arrived
into that good American middle class night. So you would see guys, ordinary
guys, really, maybe football players or playing some sport, maybe just social
guys, tooling around Main Street (really U.S.1 but everybody called it Main
Street, and in truth for teenagers it was Main Street and the only street that
mattered) on Friday and Saturday nights with sharp Buicks, Chevys, a lonely
Pontiac or two, maybe some Ford thing (no, not the damn Edsel), or an off-hand
exotic import like a British-made MG. Of course even ordinary guys did not want
to drive some father-mobile and so once those keys ritualistically passed hands
the old heap was converted, disposable income- converted into a “boss” car.
And a “boss” car if you were
to have any chance, or expected to have any chance with the twists (local Olde
Saco teen corner boy expression for, what else, girls), was what you needed to
stay in that breezed out cool night. Otherwise stay home, watch television with
the family, and save the gas money for some record you just had to have. Just
don’t bother to sit by the phone waiting, midnight phone waiting, for Julie or
Molly or Debbie to call because brother they are out riding with real guys with
real souped- up cars. And real souped –up meant a few things in that fin-tail
age. It meant much fender chrome, it meant serious hubcaps, it meant serious
hood ornaments, it meant exotic silky seat-covers, it meant a be-bop sound
system that could be heard from about six blocks away to let every girl in the
area know “the killer” was on the prowl, and beyond that it meant you hadsome serious horsepower under that hood that
when you cranked it up to one hundred miles per hour (100 MPH for the
disbelievers)in sixty seconds on some
dark country road that you would blow that dude in that prissy father-mobile Cadillac away, far away. And take his girl as
the prize.
So, no way, no way in hell,
were you going to let Dad’s old trusty mechanic, some Mr. Bill who ran the Esso
station and did oil changes while you waited and had a Coke. A guy who
cautioned you every time you went in to "fill ‘er up" and said what a
wonderful vehicle it was and warn you against going more than fifty-five miles
per hour (55 MPH for disbelievers) because you might ruin the engine. And
muttering under your breathe that maybe he should go work on one of Mr. Ford’s
Model T, or something. No, any teenage guy, even ordinary guys with preppy
sweater and bobby-soxer girlfriendslet
nobody, nobody on this good green earth get under that hood except Chassis
Chuck, yes, Chuck Miller.
And from here on in this is
Chuck’s story. Chuck and his magic greased-up fingers. See Chuck didn’t go to
some car company auto mechanics school, or even taken up the trade in high
school. But he was the A-One mechanic that every teenage guy in town went to
just the same. I know the real story of how he developed his mechanical prowess
because Chuck lived down the street from where my family lived, down in the
Acre, down on those wrong side of the tracks, and I used to hang out at his
“garage” when I was a kid and had nothing else to do. One night he told me the
story of his life, of his car-fixing life. It is short so listen up.
Chuck Miller was kind of a
“foundling,” at least that was what his mother (not his real mother) called him
because she said he arrived at her humble door one day and she just took him
in. Now the Acre for those who don’t know, or can’t guess, was in the old days
before they put in “the projects” filled with old ratty seen better days
trailers of every description, mainly dilapidated. This is where Chuck spent
his youth and came to young manhood.So
you know, know without me telling, that Chuck was not one of those juniors who
had that neat key ceremony when dear old Dad passed the torch to car-hood.
Still Chuck was crazy, crazy for cars from about twelve on when some mother’s
friend took him to the Bethel Speedway. He was hooked, hooked more than a guy
could get hooked over a woman (that’s what he said that night he told me his
story anyway). So he started going to junkyards and hanging around older guys
with hotrods and learned stuff, learned tons of stuff. Basically learned how to
build a car from scratch.
Now Chuck had trophy cars
along the way but he only had eyes really for that first one. He described
every inch but I only remember the highlights. The engine from an old Chevy,
the gearbox from a Studebaker, the chassis from some major wreak on U.S. Route
One up in Camden, chrome fenders from some Buick, a real hodge-podge but his
for about fifty bucks and ten thousand years of mankind trying to ride faster
and get from point A to point B without undue duress. And all done before he
was sixteen and could actually legally get a driver’s license. Although, keep
this under your hat, he was driving the back roads, the plentiful back roads
from about age thirteen.
As you might expect this
first Chuck-mobile looked funny, looked kind of contorted so, naturally, the
juniors around town razzed him about it, razzed him bad. Razzed him so bad that
he challenged the “boss” car leader, Sam Murray and his souped-up ’57 two-toned
Chevy, to a “chicken run.” Now Sam was strictly a mild-mannered jock but he had
this twist (remember who that designated), this Cathy Bleu, whom he was trying
to impress and to keep as his “trophy” girlfriend. So she egged Sam on, egged
him hard about what should happen to Acre guys, even Acre young guys. So the
“run” was on, on for an October Saturday night.
Oh, for the clueless, or for
those not addicted to 1950s teen angst films like James Dean’s Rebel Without A Cause a chicken run back
then was just two guys (with or without their honeys in the front seat) going
down some back road as fast as they could-winner take all. Winner take all
meaning the prerogatives of the “boss” car king of the night. On the face of it
Chuck was foolish to challenge Sam and Sam was foolish to put his “rep” on the
line against some Acre has-been before he was. But twists (damn, now I ‘m
saying it) will lead guys, seemingly normal guys, to do strange things.
Naturally Chuck had to relate
every detail of the race, from the flash start to the blazing finish, taking
far longer to detail the vent that it took to run it. Naturally as well Chuck
won, won in a breeze or else he wouldn’t have bothered to tell the story if you
think about it. So after that, for a long time after that, Chuck Miller was the
king of the “chicken run” night around southern Maine. And every guy, every guy
who did not want to sit around waiting for the midnight phone not to ring, including
a chastised Sam, headed to Chuck’s garage (really just that run down trailer
and a tool shed) when they made their key exchange rites of passage. Oh yah,
and after that first chicken run victory, and for several years after, sitting
in the front seat of the Chuck-mobile on most Friday and Saturday nights was
one Cathy Bleu. Naturally.
This is another tongue-in-cheek commentary,
the back story if you like, in the occasional entries under this headline going
back to the primordial youth time of the 1950s with its bags full of classic
rock songs for the ages. Now many music and social critics have done yeomen’s
service giving us the meaning of various folk songs, folk protest songs in
particular, from around this period. You know they have essentially beaten us
over the head with stuff like the meaning of Bob Dylan’s Blowin’ In The
Wind as a clarion call for now aging baby-boomers back then and a warning
(not heeded) that a new world was a-bornin’, or trying to be. Or better, The
Times They Are A-Changin’with plaintive plea for those in charge to get
hip, or stand aside. (They did neither.) And we have been fighting about a
forty year rearguard action to this very day trying to live down those experiences,
and trying to get new generations to blow their own wind, change their own
times, and sing their own plainsong in a similar way.
Like I said the
critics have had a field day (and long and prosperous academic and journalistic
careers as well) with that kind of stuff, fluff stuff really. The hard stuff,
the really hard stuff that fell below their collective radars, was the
non-folk, non-protest, non-deep meaning (so they thought) stuff, the daily fare
of popular radio back in the day. A song like today’s selection, You’re So Fine. A song that had every
red-blooded American (and who knows maybe world teen) wondering their own
wondering about the fate of the song’s narrator. About what happened that night
(and the next morning) that caused him to pose the comment in that particular
way. Yes, that is the hard stuff of social commentary, the stuff of popular
dreams, and the stuff that is being tackled head on in this series-Those Oldies But Goodies…Out In The Be-Bop ‘50s
Song Night. Read on. ******** She stood there, just stood
there grinning to herself at the bathroom door going in to freshen up from the
night ‘s pillow exertions, and, a little sore, good sore, to do other womanly after
sex things. Grinning that womanly grin (although she was barely out of her
teens, having turned twenty just the month before that grin moment) that
connoted that she had caught herself a man, a good man from the looks of him
this first morning, and a man whom she knew, knew deep in her womanly soul,
that believed, and perhaps, would believe to infinity, or something like that,
that he had bedded her with his line, his oh so fine line the night before at
the Carousel Club, the one in Old Town for the college set and the young who
were full of energy and looking, frankly, lookingfor sex, not the one over on Main Street that
was reserved, strictly reserved for touritas mainly interested in the next
drink, where he, so he thought, had picked her up.
What he did not know, and
would not know to infinity or something like that, was at just that 1959
moment, just that turned twenty moment, she had dumped her no good, two-timing
(she later found out five-timing so the no good stands two and one half more no
good ) boyfriend from State U, the local hush-hushdope dealer on campus (selling to ancient tea
heads, not so ancient beats, the curious, and an occasional girl, prodded on by
some anxious boyfriend, who needed to loosen herself up before her first bout
with the sex pillows), and all-around heel. So she had been on the rebound last
night, had purposefully dolled herself up, all tight cashmere sweater to reveal
her perky bosom, all skin- tight black shirt to show her curvaceous hips and
slender and graceful legs, all ruby red lips stick to highlight her lips and a
dab of come hinter, come hither perfume to highlight, to highlight her prowl
needs.
Then he came into the club,
known, vaguely known from around campus as something of a beat, something of a
hipster (although she did not recall him around boyfriend tea times), something
of an egghead, and something of a loner, all kind of vaguely known but known.
And not known, intelligence gathered in the Ladies’ Room where she cornered
Clara White who knew of such things, such campus things, not known to be hard on
women, or at least his women. So when he came by her stool seat at the bar, her
very friendly seat at the bar, and asked her in a very friendly but civilized
manner whether the seat next to her was empty, she was ready, ready to be swept
of her feet if that was where things were headed.
And then he started with that
you’re so fine line, like from the big hit song, The Falcons’ song, everybody
at school was playing and everybody knew the words to. And every guy had as his
opening line that month. But it wasn’t what he said but the way he said it,
like he was thankful that she, and she alone, was sitting alone at the bar just
that minute. That he was thankful too that she let him sit next her. And that
she had dolled herself up to look, well, to look so fine. So with that opening,
after the troubles of the past few months, and his casual, his non-threatening
offer to buy her a drink, she knew Clara’s intelligence was right, and she knew
too that she was not going to sleep alone that night in her apartment. And as
the evening progressed, without a lot of boring this and that to foul things up,
he too knew where he was spending the night.
Just then he awoke, and she
asked him, asked him like they would be together for a time whether he wanted
some coffee, and what he wanted in it. And he answered like he didn’t want to
put her to any bother and just like he too expected they would be together for
a time.
I have
spilled much ink talking about the corner boy society that I grew up in 1950s
Olde Saco (that’s up in Maine, seacoast Maine, not the great forest, farmland,
ski mountain Mainebut real honest
lobsterman, shipbuilder, yawl Maine, all Mainiac Maine though and you cannot
buy that entre for those interested) where some hard-ass (and soft-ass too)
corner boys ripped up the imaginations of wanna-bes like me and my corner
boyswho hung around, soft-ass hung
around, Mama’s Pizza Parlor over on Atlantic Avenue not far from the beach in
case of any luck, girl luck, and car back seat Seal Rock sealed dreams, waiting,
well, waiting for somebreathe of fresh
air, maybe coming in from the nearby ocean to wash over us and take us out of
that red scare cold war night. In the meantime we hung out, Jimmy LaCroix, Phil
Dubois, Jack (not French-Canadian mother and grandmere Jeanbon but good old
American vanilla Jack like Jack Kennedy, our co-religionist) Bleu, his brother
Deni, and me (me of the Kentuck Baptist father but F-C mother, nee LeBlanc, and
of a long story of that union’s coming aboutthat I will tell you about sometime when I am not corner boy-addled)
doing a little of this and a little of that, some stuff legal other stuff well,
let’s just leave it as other stuff. And leading us, unquestionably leading us
once things got sorted out at about age fifteen, was Big Red Dubonnet, the king
hell king of the Mama’s Pizza Parlor corner boys.
So on
any given night, mostly weekends but in the summer seemingly every night, from
about junior high school on you could find us in those environs, usually
sitting on the stoop in front of Mama’s or holding up the brick wall on the
parking lot side, one foot on the wall the other firmly on terra firma as was our style when corner boy posing, including white tee-shirt,
black chinos and midnight sunglasses. Or playing pinball on Mama’s back room
machine, the Madame LaRue busty ladies pictured on the scoreboard begging you
to play for their favors, play fiercely although empty-handedly (except those
seventeen free games you racked up in your, ah, frenzy to please Madame). Or
when rock and roll threw its fresh breathe over us we tossed many quarters in
Mama’s jukebox to hear the latest songs like the Chiffon’s He’s So Fine about twelve times straight and hoped that certain shes came in to
listen and maybe help make us those selections. Or, on some dark moonless
night, heading toward sixteen, seventeen maybe, maybe a little drunk, maybe a
little dough hunger, or needing dough girl hungry, we might just be found doing
our midnight creep around the neighborhood in order to make ends meet, that
little of this and that stuff mentioned early.
As high
school turned to work world, or maybe college world as things opened up even
for working- class kids in those blessed 1960s times, the old corner boy
society, or our generation’s chapter of it, went in several difference
directions, some good some not so good, including those like our leader, the by
then legendary Big Red Dubonnet who had graduated to armed robberies of gas
stations, liquor stores, warehouses and Shawshank. Yah, Big Red was tough (I
once saw him chain-whip, mercilessly chain-whip, a guy, an Irish guy from over
in the Irishtown section of the Acre, and a guy who was known far and wide as
tough as nails, for the simple error of being on the wrong corner, Red’s (and
our), while breathing), was pretty smart, in a street smart way, knew a couple
of things about the world and, and, be still my heart, let me have some free
Madame LaRue games after he had racked up a ton and needed to take care of some
ever present girl business. And I too was the beneficiary of Big Red’s (not
Red, Big Red, don’t ever make that mistake, remember what I said about that
chain-whipping) largess on many occasions because Big Red attracted girls, and
not just slutty girls around the Acre like you’d expect, but girls who had
their Saint Brigitte’s Church (Roman Catholic in that French-Canadian heavy old
mill town) novena book recitals in one part of their brains and lust, bad boy
lust, in the other, on more occasions that you would think. And knew more tricks,
more please a boy tricks, than some old seacoast sailor’s whore.
And
that is where memories of Big Red and the characters, hard-ass grown up corner
boys who I ran into, or heard about, stone-killer Irishguys from Southieand Charlestown in Boston who filled up the
state pen at Walpole (now called Cedar Junction at the behest of the local
citizenry tired of hard-ass grown corner boy reputations ), blackjack armed
robbery guys from South Point over in Springfield, general murder and mayhem motorcycle guys from
Oakland and up and down the West Coast, and street tough guys hard-bitten by
war, mainly Vietnam, from the wharves of Seattle, intersect in my mind. See Big
Red, the late Big Red Dubonnet now, never could find anything better in this whole
wide world than to be theking hell king
of the corner boy night. But that, just like any kingship, takes dough, and so
you either work the work-a-day world with the squares or go where the dough is-
for Big Red in Podunk gas stations and liquors stores, maybe an off-hand truck or
warehouse heist. They were, Big Red and the others, all driven by that same
first glance, last chance, imperative though, and by the same need to hone
their respective skills on a regular basis before a hostile and unforgiving
world.
No
question the life held me in thrall, as it now holds me in the thought that for
a minute back in the 1950s, hell, more than a minute, I could have been lured
to the life, no sweat, no looking back. Jesus I was the “holder” (innocent kid
who looked like he could barely tie his shoes, and that task badly, let alone
engage in criminal endeavors when cop time came) on more than one occasion when
the great (locally Olde Saco and Portland great) “clip artist” Ronny Bleu (older
brother of Jack and Deni) had the local merchants in a frenzy anytime he was in
the down town area, or maybe even thought about being there.And later in gratitude to Big Red for his
favors (no, jesus, no not that lame free pinball game stuff, but when he “gave”
me one of his “reject” girls, a college girl he said he couldn’t understand and
thought I might be able to) I did a couple of favors for him in return. Just look outstuff on a couple of heists but Big Red always appreciated it and
everybody around town knew enough to not hassle me for any reason, any reason
at all. I’ll never forget the thrill the
first time we saw Big Red pull out his gun, some old .32 automatic I think, or
when we heard that the Esso gas station over on Gorham Road in Scarborough was
hit one dark night by a guy aiming a .32 at the gas jockey attendant. He got
away clean, clean as a whistle, especially when that gas jockey blanked out
when thought about that gun later when the cops put Big Red in front of him for
identification. The stuff of legends, no question. So you can see the pull was
strong, real strong.
Oh yah,
sure the life had its downside, the time up at Shawshank, or some two bit
county pokey. Stuff like that. But being connected, well, being able to walk
around free as a bird because you were connected, that was something, wasn’t
it?But get this too. I don’t know how
true the code of omerta (silence) still is in Charlestown (or Southie, or about
seventeen other places where corner boys, some corner boys anyway, go on to the
life) but I am willing to believe that it is honored more in the breech than
the observance. At least it was in Podunk.How do you think they (and you know who the they is, the cops from the
locals to the feds), got the lead that got Big Red after he knocked over the
biggest fur warehouse in Portland that last time before they clipped his wings,
clipped them bad?I hope that bastard
rots in hell. Big Red- RIP.
The blues is, praise be… He
had just barely gotten done with his work for the day, his sun up to sun down
work helping Brother Barnes shoe the plow horses, a job he had held since his
older brother, Ben, had gotten back from the war, the Great War, the war to end
all wars, the war for so-called democracy, World War I, if anybody was asking
and upon returning had decided to move on to Clarksville and later Memphis, on
Mister’s cotton boll massive ten thousand acre delta plantation, than his
father took him aside and asked him , really ordered, to wash up and get ready
to go over to Lancer Lane. The words Lancer Lane made him jump for joy inside,
for this night, this verySaturday night
he would finally, finally, get to play his new guitar, well not really new for
that instrument had been passed down to his father from who knows when, maybe
back to pharaoh times when those old pyramid slaves needed something to take
their minds off their back-breaking work on their relax minute, in front of a
real crowd at the Lancer Lane juke joint and not just before his father, his
siblings, and a few stray cats at Mister’s company store over in Lancersville.
No, he was stepping up in the
world, the world that mattered, the world of those rough-hewed, hard drinking walking
daddies (and their clinking dressed to the nines, dressed to the soft kitten
pillow tumble nines, walked- around women, praise be) that populated the Lancer
Lane juke joint on Saturday night (and paid penance, serious penance, at nearby
Lancer Lane Lord’s Work Baptist on Sunday morning, many times sliding directly
from one site to the other, smoothly if stinking a little of sweat, hard, hard
Sonny Boy’s golden liquor, and mussed up pillow tumble sex ), who would decide
whether he had the stuff his father thought he had. And decide it in the only
way such things were decided, by throwing dollars, real dollars, at him if he
was good and broken whisky bottles (or, if tight for dough, as was often the
case with tough times as just then, and so bought their whisky by the jar,
jars) if he panned. He had asked his father repeatedly since he had turned sixteen
to let him accompany him on his journeys to Lancer Lane (the latter as
performer and as a, ah, imbiber), but his father maybe knowing the wisdom of
sheltering the boy from those whisky bottles and jars if things didn’t work out
just like his father, bless him, before him had held off until he was sure, or
fairly sure of the night’s outcome.
What sonny boy did not know
was that father had relented as much because he was in need of an extra pair of
hands in case Big Nig Fingers showed up that night as that he was ready to have
dollars thrown at his son. The nature of the dispute between Big Nig Fingers
and his father was simply enough explained, a woman, a dressed to the nines
pillow tumble woman, Sonny Boy’s woman, Lucille, and her roving eyes, roving
eyes that landed, allegedly landed, on his father. Alleged by Sonny Boy
although denied, vehemently denied by his father, who had secretly a couple of
years back had had an affair with Lucille when Big Nig was trying to take over,
well take over something, booze, dope, women, numbers, something in Memphis. So
yes, yes indeed, his small-framed father most assuredly and vehemently denied
those roving eyes.
A couple of hours later,
washed up, dressed up in a clean work shirt and pants he and his father having
walked the two dusty miles from their Mister’s plantation-provide quarters, arrived
at the juke house, really nothing but a cabin, a log cabin, belonging to Sonny
Boy Jackson who used the place as a front for his golden liquor sales as well.
(Yes, that Sonny Boy in the days before he went to Clarksville and began the
road to some local fame as the best harmonica in 1920s delta Mississippi, even
getting a record contract from Bee Records when he was “discovered” by one of
the agents that they had sent out scouring the country for talent for their
race record division after Mame Smith set the world, the black world and a few
hip whites on recorded blues fire.) Now, like most cabins in those parts then,
maybe now too, who knows, there was no electricity, hell, nobody practically
except Mister (and the Captain, that deduction crazy Captain, docking everybody
for his version of not a full bale, for sassing back, for breaking tools, hell,
one time for some asthmatic picker just breathing ) had electricity, or a
reason to use it just a few chairs, tables, a counter to belly up to for
whiskey jar orders (bottles were sold out back away from prying eyes, moneyless
prying eyes looking for some cadges swigs), and for the occasion Sonny Boy had
a small stage jerry-rigged in the back so the entertainment would not get
pushed around too much when things got rowdy, as they always did, later in the
evening.
That night he had a surprise
coming, or rather two. His father, taking no chances, had arranged to have a few
members of the Andersonville Sheiks from up the road, who would later in the
decade, some of them anyway, go on to form the Huntsville Sheiks and also get
that coveted record contract from Bee Records when sheiks replaced harmonica
players and barrelhouse mamas as blues fire among blacks and those few hip
whites, to back his son up. So he was going to have a real ensemble, a jug
player, a harp player (harmonica, okay) and a washboard man, his father to play
banjo (if he was sober enough, and while that was in question most of the night
he held up, held up well enough to slide over to Lord’s Work Baptist for the
eight o’clock service even if stinking of sweat and liquor). Papa had done right by him, Big Nig Fingers and
his Lucille (to his father’s dismay) had decided to take a night off so he
would need no cut knife help, and he blasted the place with his strange riffs,
riffs going back to some homeland Africa time. Proof: twenty- seven dollars as
his share of the house. And no whisky
bottles (or jars).
Oh, the second surprise. Miss
Lucy, Miss Lucy Barnes, Miss Lucy Barnes, a sweet sixteen going on thirty, and
no one needed to explain what that meant when a girl, hell, woman had her
wanting habits on, a dark- skinned beauty, all cuddles and curves, the daughter
of his” boss,” the plantation blacksmith, had taken notice of him and kept
sending small jars of Sonny Boy’s golden liquor his way which just made him
play more madly, hell, let’s call it by its right name, he played the devil’s music
like he was the devil himself. By the end of the night she was sitting, table
sitting, just in front of him, waiting for that last encore. Suddenly she
jumped up and started to dance, dance to his encore riff blasted version of Mean, Mistreatin’ Mama shaking her head
back and forth furiously indicating that one Miss Lucy Barnes’ was not in that
category, at least for that night. They too were seen sneaking into that eight
o’clock service at Lord’s Work’s Baptist a little sweaty and stinking of
liquor, having spent the previous few hours in the back room of Sonny’sjoint, just in case you wanted to know.
***************
The blues ain’t nothing,
nothing at all but a good woman on your mind, all curves and cuddles, all be my
daddy, daddy, be my walking daddy, build for comfort not for speed just like
your daddy, your real daddy, not your long gone daddy (met as you came up river
from Lancersville via Memphis and he, he returned from another war to end all
wars, this time World War II) just now serving a stretch, a nickel’s worth for
armed robbery up in Joliet for some Southside (Southside Chicago, natch)heist
that went sour, hell, you told long gone daddy that guns didn’t make the play
any better but long gone was just a little too long gone on that twinkle dust
and so when Danville Slim called the shots, long gone was long gone, told you
about when you were knee high and needing instruction about who, and who not,
to mess with when you got your wanting habits on.
Hence, stay away from big
women, big-legged, big bosomed, big- lusted, hell, just big everything, like
the song, the blue blue blue song says, don’t forget, they will wear you out, wear
you out for other women, ditto, long thin gals, hungry girls who have learned
man trap tricks in lieu of big appetites , with wanderlust eyes, and twinkle
dust noses, itching, checking out every daddy, every daddy that came by her
eyes, flashing five dollars bills and another twinkle line,ditto, god’s girls, Sunday morning moaners, smelling
of gin, washtub gin, and carrying juke joint slashes, some mean mama cut her up
when she wrong- eyed mean mama’s daddy, now Sunday looking for, can you believe
it, forgiveness, and trick, getting it, stick with curves and cuddles, an easy
rider, a low love easy rider, she’ll treat you right and no heavy overhead, and
no damn where have you been daddy questions.
She, Miss Lucy she, all
cuddles and curves she, an easy rider, yah, a sweet and low easy rider, to make
a man, well, to make a man get his own wanting habits on, so far away, so far
from uptown downtownChi town, far down
in sweaty delta Mississippi, maybe still in Clarksville like he left her that
night, that moonless 1942 night, when he had to break-out from delta sweats,
from working sunup to blasted sundown for no pay, for chits, Christ what are
you supposed to do with company chits when you had your Miss Lucy wanting
habits on, needed, no craved, some of Sonny Boy’s honey liquor, from the Mister
on his ten thousand acre cotton boll plantation (selling every last boll too,
good or bad, to the U.S. Army, for, for what else, uniforms), and those damn
deductions from the Captain, for, for sassing, and grab that bus, that
underground bus, out on Highway 61, and head, yah, head north following the
north star, following the migrant trail up-river. A quick stop at Memphis to
see if any of the guys, B.B. (no, not the one you are thinking of), Harmonica Slim,
Delta Dark, Bobby Be-Bop, Big Joe, Muddy (yes, that Muddy slumming down river and
on the low from some Chi town wench whose man was looking, knife looking, for
the guy who messed with his baby and left her blue, real blue. True Muddy
story.) needed a guitar max daddy player.
Then straight to Chi town and
work, work in the hog butcher to the world, work in the Casey steel driving hammering
foundry to the world , work in the grain elevator to the world, work in the
farm machinery equipment factory to the world , good, steady, sweaty work, five
day work and done, five day work, maybe overtime, glad-handed overtime on
Saturday,and done, no Captain’s noise ,
except maybe some rough Irish cop night stick but, mainly, just hell work, and
then off to bumbling squalid three- decker hovel, overcrowded, over-priced,
under heated, damn, nothing but a cold water flat with about six different
nationalities chattering on the fetid Maxwell- connected streets.
Home, home long enough to
turn overalls, sweated blue overalls, into Saturday be-bop blues master, all
silk shirt, about five colors, blue blue, green green sun yellow, deep magenta,
some violent purple, all fancy dance pants, all slick city boy now shoes
(against that po’ boy Lancersville no shoe night to make daddy, real daddy cry,
and mama too), topped by a feathered soft felt hat, de riguer for Saturday prances. For a while singing and playing,
he, mainly playing that on fire(electric)guitar first learned from daddy, real daddy, down the delta when he was
from hunger and he and daddy Saturday juked for whiskey drinks (for daddy) and
sodas and ribs for him, for nickels and dimes with his long gone daddy (gone
daddy previously mentioned tired of nickels and thus plugging an ironic
nickel’s worth) out behind Maxwell Street, only the prime guys, the guys Chess,
or Ace, or Decca, or, some race label were interested in, for a while, got to
play the big street, the big attention, the big sweep, everybody else behind
for nickels and maybe an off-hand stray piece, a joy girl they called
them,hell he called them when he had
his wanting habits on, not all black or mixed either, a few white joys looking
for negro kicks, looking for kicks before Forest Lawn stockbrokers, or futures
traders made their claims, looking over the new boys in order to say that they
had that, had that before they headed out to Maxwell Street glare or sweet
home, yah, sweet home Joliet. And Miss Lucy waited, waited down in some
lonesome Clarksville crossroad, dust rolling in, sun beginning to rest, watching
the daily underground bus heading north, north to her Johnny Blaze, Johnny
quick on that amped up guitar and the stuff of dreams.
The blues ain’t nothing,
nothing at all but a bad woman on your mind, a woman walking in your place of
work, your stage, your Carousel Club, you just trying to get that damn guitar
weapon, baby, mama, sugar, main squeeze, in tune, the one just off of Maxwell
Street, mecca, with her walking daddy, eyeing you that first minute, big blond
blue eyes, and even walking daddy can feel the heat coming off her, animal heat
mixed up with some Fifth Avenue perfume bought by the ounce , feel that he was
going to spend the night on a knife’s edge. The Carousel Club got a mix, got a
mix on Friday nights when the be-bop crazy white girls, not all big blond blue
eyes but also mixed, decided that be-bop jazz, their natural stomping grounds,
over at places like the Kit Kat Club was just too tame for their flaming 1950s
appetites and so they went slumming, slumming with a walking daddy, a black as
night walking daddy, make no mistake, in tow just in case, in case knives came
into play.
She had her fix on him, her
and that damn perfume that he could smell across the room, that and that animal
thing that some woman have, have too damn much of like his daddy, his real
daddy, told him to watch out for back when he was knee-high and working the jukes
for cakes and candies (and daddy for Sonny Boy’s honey liquor). Just what he
needed, needed now that he had worked his way up from cheap street playing for
nickels and dimes (and, okay, an off-hand piece once the joy girls, some of
them white like this girl, looking for negro kicks, badass negro kicks and then
back to wherever white town, heard him roar up to heaven on that fret board) to
backing up Big Slim, yah, that Big Slim who just signed with Chess and was
getting ready to bring the blues back to its proper place now thatit looked like that damn rock and roll, that
damn Elvis who took all the air out of
any other kind of musichad run its
course. Then it started, she sent a drink his way, a compliment to his superb
playing on Look Yonder Wall according
to Millie the waitress who played the messenger, then another, ditto on The Sky Is Crying and a Millie watch out
remark. Walking daddy was not pleased and she looked like she was getting just
drunk enough to make her move (hell, he had seen that enough, and not just with
these easy white girls). No sale tonight girlie that bad ass negro really does
look bad ass, bad ass like long gone daddy whom he started on these mean
streets with and was still finishing up another nickel at Joliet. She made her
way to the stage as the first set ended. Pleasant, hell they are all pleasant,
in that polite way they have been brought up in for about four or five
generations, but still with that come hither perfume and that damn hungry look.
No sale, no sale girlie, not with bad ass looking daggers in his eyes. And that
night there wasn’t. Next Friday night she came in alone, came in and sat right
in front of him. Didn’t say a word at intermission, just sent over a drink for
a superb rendition ofMean Mistreatin’Mama , and left it at
that.
After work she was waiting
for him out in back, he nodded at her, and she pointed at her car, a late
model, and they were off. They didn’t surface again for a week.
**************
The blues ain’t nothing but…
He, Daddy Fingers (strictly a stage front name, with a no will power Clarence Mark
Smith real name needing, desperately needing, cover just like a million other
guys trying to reach for the big lights, trying to reach heyday early 1950s Maxwell
Street, hell, maybetrying get a record
contract, a valued Chess contract, and that first sweet easy credit, no down
payment, low monthly payments Cadillac, pink or yellow, with all the trimming
and some sweet mama sitting high tit proud in front), had to laugh, laugh out
loud sometimes when these white hipsters asked him what the blues were.
He, well behind the white
bread fad times, having spent the last twenty years mostly hidden down South,
the chittlin’ circuit down South, from Biloxi to Beaumont, working bowling
alleys, barbecue joints (the best places where even if the money was short you
had your ribs and beer, a few whisky shots maybe, some young brown skin with
lonely eyes woman lookin’ for a high-flying brown skin man in need of a woman’s
cooking , or at least a friendly bed for a few nights), an odd juke house now
electrified, some back road road-side diner converted for an evening into a
house of entertainment, hell even a church basement when the good lord wasn’t
looking or was out on an off Saturday night had not noticed that these kids
asking that august question were not his old Chi town, New Jack City, ‘Frisco
Bay hipstersbut mostly fresh-faced kids
in guy plaid short shirts and chinos and girl cashmere sweaters and floppy
skirts were not hip, not black-hearted, black dressed devil’s music hip. For
one thing no hipster, and hell certainly no wanna-be hipster, would even pose
the question but just dig on the beat, dig on the phantom guitar work as he
worked the fret board raw, dig on being one with the note progression. Being,
well, beat.).
Plaid and cashmere sweater
crowding around some makeshift juke stage, some old corner barroom flop spot or
like tonight here on this elegant stage with all the glitter lights at Smokin’ Joe’s
Place, Cambridge’s now the home of the blues, the 1970s reincarnation ofhomeland Africa, sweated pharaoh slave plantations,
Mister and Captain’s jim crow plantations, juke joints, sweet home Chicago, for
all who were interested in the genealogy of such things came around looking,
searching for some explanation like it was some lost code recently discovered
like that Rosetta Stonethey found a
while back to figure out what old pharaoh and his kind said (hell, he
couldhave deciphered that easy enough
for those interested- work the black bastards to death and if they slack up,
whip them, whip them bad, whip them white, and ain’t it always been so).
So he told them, plaid guy
and cashmere bump sweater girl, told them straight lie, or straight amusing thing,
that like his daddy, his real daddy who had passed down the blues to him, and
who got it from his daddy, and so on back, hell, maybe back to pharaoh times
when those slave needed something to keep them working at a steady
death-defying pace, that the blues wasn’t nothing but a good woman on your
mind. And if some un-cool, or maybe dope addled wanna-be Chi town hipster, or
some white bread all glimmering girl from Forest Hills out for negro kicks, had
been naïve enough to ask the question that would have been enough but plaid and
cashmere wanted more.
Wanted to know why the three
chord progression thing was done this way instead of that, or whether the whole
blues thing came from the Georgia Sea Islands (by way of ancient homeland
Africa) like they had never heard of Mister’s Mississippi cotton boll
plantation, Captain’s lashes, broiling suns, their great grandfathers marching
through broken down Vicksburg, about Brother Jim Crow, or about trying to
scratch two dollars out of one dollar land. Wanted to know if in Daddy Finger’s
exalted opinion Mister Charley Patton was the sweet daddy daddy of the blues,
wanted to know if Mister Robert Johnson did in fact sell his soul to the devil
out on Highway 61, 51, 49 take a number that 1930 take a number night, wanted
to know if Mister Mississippi John Hurt was a sweet daddy of an old man (also
“discovered” of late) like he seemed to be down in Newport, wanted to know if
black-hearted Mister Muddy really was a man-child with man-child young girl
appetites, wanted to know if Mister Howlin’ Wolf ever swallowed that harmonica when
he did that heated version they had heard about of How Many More Years (not knowing that Wolf was drunk as a skunk,
high- shelf whisky not some Sonny Boy’s home brew, when he did that oneor that, he Daddy Fingers,had backed Wolf up many a night when Mister
Hubert Sumlin was in his cups or was on the outs with the big man). Wanted to
know, laugh, if Mister Woody Guthrie spoke a better talking blues that Mister
Lead Belly, or Mister Pete Seeger was truer to the blues tradition that Mister
Bob Dylan (like he, Daddy Fingers, spent his time thinking about such things
rather than trying to keep body and soul together from one back of the bus Mister
James Crow bus station to the next in order to get to some godforsaken hidden
juke joint to make a couple of bucks, have some of Sonny Boy’s son’s golden
liquor, and maybe catch a stray lonesome Saturday woman without a man, or if
with a man, a man without the look of a guy who settled his disputes, his woman
disputes,at the sharp end of a knife, wanted
to know, wanted to know, wanted to know more than the cold hard fact that,
truth or lie, the blues wasn’t nothing but a good girl on your mind. Nothing
but having your wanting habits on. But that never was good enough for them, and
thus the fool questions. And always, tonight included, the fool Hey Daddy
Fingers what are the blues. Okay, baby boy, baby girl, the blues is …