From
The Pen Of Peter Paul Markin- Looking For The Heart Of Saturday Night, Christ The
Heart Of Any Night- The Songs of Tom Waits-Take Three
A
link to a YouTube film clip of Tom Waits performing Looking For The Heart Of Saturday Night
If you, as I do, every once in a
while, every once in a while when the norms of bourgeois push to get ahead and
then what, push you off your sainted wheels, and get you into some angst-ridden despair about
where you went off that angel-driven
dream of your youth, not faded, tattered, and half- forgotten(but only half,
only half, sisters and brothers, and need some solace, need to reach back to
roots, reach back to the primeval forest maybe, put the headphones on some Tom
Waits platter (oops, CD, YouTube selection, etc.- “platter” refers to a, ah,
record, vinyl, put on a record player, hell, look it up in Wikipedia, okay).
If the norms of don’t rock the boat,
the norms of keep your head down because you don’t want to wind up like them
(and fill in the blank of the “them,” usually dark, speaking some unknown
language maybe gibberish for all you know, moving furtively and stealthily against
your good night) drive you crazy and you need to listen to those ancient drum
beats, those primeval forest leave droppings maybe, that spoke of the better angels of your nature
when those angel dreams, half-forgotten but only half remember, ruled your days. Turn up the volume another
notch or two on that Tom Waits selection, maybe Jersey Girl or Brother, Can
You Spare A Dime (can you?), Hold On,
or Gunn Street Girl.
If you need to hear things, just to
sort things out, just to recapture that angel-edge, that made you come alive,
made you think about from whence you came and how a turn, a slight turn this way
or that, could have landed you on the wrong side, things about boozers (and
about titantic booze-crazed struggles in barroom, on beaches, in the back seats
of cars, lost in the mist of time down some crazed midnight, hell, four in the
morning, penniless, cab fare-less night) , losers (those who have lost their
way, gotten it taken away like some maiden virginity, never had anything but lost,
not those who never had a way to be lost), dopesters (inhaling, in solidarity
hotel rooms among junkie brethren, down in dark alleys jack-rolling some poor
stiff of his room rent for kicks, out in nighttime canyons flame blaring off
the walls, the seven seas of chemical dust, mainly blotter, maybe peyote if
that earth angel connection comes through, creating vision of long lost tribes
trying, trying like hell, to get “connected,”
connected in the campfire shadow night), hipsters (all dressed in black,
mary mack dressed in black, speeding, speaking be-bop this and be-bop that to
stay in fashion, hustling, always hustle, always moving), fallen sisters
(sisters of mercy, sisters who need mercy, sisters who were mercifully made
fallen in some mad dash night, merciful
sister feed me, feed me good ), midnight sifters (lifting in no particular
order hubcaps, tires, wrenches, jacks, an occasional gem, some cheap jewelry in
wrong neighborhood, some paintings or whatever may be left in some sneak back
alley, it is the sifting that counts), grifters (hey, buddy watch this, now you
see it, now you don’t, now you don’t see your long gone John dough, and Mister
three card monte long gone too ), drifters (here today gone tomorrow with or
without dough, to Winnemucca, Ogden, Fresno, Frisco town, name your town, name
your poison and the great big blue seas washing you clean out into the Japans ),
the driftless (cramped into one room hovels, shelters, seedy rooming houses
afraid to stay in-doors or to go outside, afraid of the “them” too ), and small-time
grafters (the ten-percent guys, failed insurance men, repo artists, bounty
hunters, press agents, personal trainers, need I go on). You know where to
look, right.
If you need to be refreshed on the
subject of hoboes, bums, tramps (and remind me sometime to draw the
distinction, the very real and acknowledged distinction between those three
afore –mentioned classes of brethren out in the railroad jungles in some Los Angeles
ravine, some Gallup trestle, some Hoboken broken down pier, the fallen (fallen
outside the gates of Eden, or, hell, inside too), those who want to fall (and
let god figure out who made who fall, okay), Spanish Johnnies (slicked back
black hair, tee shirt, shiv, cigarette butt hanging from a parted lip, belt
buckle ready for action, leering, leering at that girl over there, maybe your
girl but watch out for that shiv, the
bastard), stale cigarette butts (from Spanish Johnnie and all the johnnies,
Camels, Luckies, no filters, no way), whiskey-soaked barroom floors (and
whiskey-soaked drunks to mop the damn place up, for drinks and donuts, maybe
just for the drinks), loners (jesus, books could be written on that subject so
let’s just pass by), the lonely (ditto loners), sad sacks (kindred, one hundred
times kindred to the loners and the lonely), the sad (encompassing all of the
above) and others at the margins of society, the whole fellahin world, then Tom
Waits is your stop.
Tom Waits is, frankly, an acquired
taste, but one well worth acquiring as he storms heaven in words, in
thought-out words to express the pain and anguish of modern living, yes, modern
living, looking for busted black-hearted angels, for girls with Monroe hips getting
kicked out of proper small town hells and left for dead with cigar wrapping
rings, for the desperate out in forsaken woods who need to hold to something,
and for all the misbegotten.
Tom Waits gives voice in song, a big task, to the kind of characters
that peopled Nelson Algren’s novels (The Last Carousel, Neon Wilderness,
Walk on the Wild Side, and The Man with the Golden Arm). In short, the
people who do not make revolutions, those revolutions we keep hearing and
reading about, far from it, but those who surely, and desperately could use
one. If, additionally, you need a primordial voice and occasional dissonant
instrumentation to round out the picture go no further. Finally, if you need
someone who “feels your pain” for his characters you are home. Keep looking for
the heart of Saturday night, Brother, keep looking.
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