Coming Of Age In 1950s America- With
Moonrise Kingdom In Mind
From The Pen Of Peter Paul Markin
Every
heterosexual boy (other sexual orientations and identifications can speak to
their own dreams, and chaste lusts), every heterosexual boy in Frank Jackman’s old corner boy working- class neighborhood anyway
in oceanside Hullsville just outside of Boston, when he came of age, maybe at
twelve maybe a little older (rule of
thumb for coming of age: when he saw those same elementary school classmate
girls, or a stray girl or two around the neighborhood who went to private school,
hell, really Catholic school in that neighborhood and thus even more exotic, that
the previous year were nothing but distractions and nuisances to a corner boy orderly
world had magically become, well, interesting) had his dreams of finding his fair Rosamund and taking her, and
them far away from the dreary day to day madnesses that they both faced. Taking
that fair damsel drenched in some Sir Walter Scott medieval knightly romance
saga from, you know, the endless parent civil wars traps, the other guys, your
so-called best corner boy friends, who had no time for girls trying to cut your
time trap, the school madnesses and assorted villainous teachers and other
authorities trap, and worse, worse the raging hormonal (homicidal?) madnesses trap.
And while in those days, those halcyon 1950s days, when it was a very close
thing indeed whether we collectively of the earth would blow ourselves to
kingdom come that dream, that Frank Jackman dream, looked and felt something
like this:
Jesus,
Frank said to himself, distractedly, that Rosamund (not the real name of the
former girl stick figure turned object of devotion but he used that name above
and so it has enough medieval enchantment and adventure to it to be
dream-worthy here) sure has changed since last year. Last year she was nothing
but a stick (of course Frank, if pressed would not have been able to use that
term last year, last year when, at best,
girls were not on the radar, or at least had no reason for commentary by Frank
and his corner boys) you know all straight lines and right angels, kind of looked
like a boy except goofy and was a girl and now she has some curves, little
curves, that made her, he guessed, a woman (although coming from a three boy
household he wasn’t sure and he wouldn’t dream of asking his mother, his high
holy Catholic mother who would have just kept saying don’t think about that now,
or ever, and just do your schoolwork). He
wondered where did she get those ruby red lips (he, endlessly, was clueless
about the very busy cosmetics and undergarment sections of the local department
store where such doing were a rite of passage of their own for the other gender
aged twelve or thereabouts) and those flashing blue eyes surrounded by some penciled
dark lines that made those blue eyes even bluer. And, and, well, he wondered
why did he keep peeping over to her aisle and her seat two rows in front in
class every chance he got. Every chance he got once he was told, told in the
infinitely complicated intelligence boys’ “lav”-girls’ “lav” grapevine that
would have put the old time slavery underground railroad or the modern CIA to
shame that one ruby-lipped, blue-eyed, soft-curved Miss Rosamund Kiley “liked”
him. And also through that complicated network Frank sent the war drums beating
that he “liked “her too, kind of.
[And the
basis of the she “liked” information? Well she was ahead, way ahead of Frank in
her cunning maneuvers, since she had tried , tried in vain to draw his
attention last year (of course these years, last or now, are driven by the school
term year not the silly lunar calendar).
Last summer she had set her eyes (blue eyes remember, ocean blue he
thought for a further description) for him when he and his corner boys had
started to sing the new rage doo wop like Frankie Lymon and the Teenagers on Why Do Fools Fall In Love and that music
had drawn (and the summer heat) her and her girlfriends into the back of the
school playground where they practiced one night and that was where she spotted
and stayed fixed on Frank, and no other. She probably had her own chaste
Galahad dreams but she can tell her own story in her own voice sometime because
this is strictly Frank’s dream.]
And that “liked,”
even if not couched in less definitive and more satisfactory “kind of” like his
was all it took for “reborn” Frank (or any boy if that corner boy night
comparing notes then and later had any cache) to decide that he must take his
Rosamund far from the madness, far from the humdrum world of school, parents,
church, boy scouts, and other drudge matters now that she “liked” him. And so
he lined up a dream adventure one night, one restless midnight when he couldn’t
sleep. It was all about going, just the two of them, just them, up to Rock
Island and starting a little household of their own, just them, where they
could talk, and walk around the stony beach, and fend off whatever Mother
Nature threw their way. If anybody came looking for them, as they surly would, well,
they would keep ahead of that easily enough. And then after a while, after he
was sure that he “liked” her, more than kind of, and she still liked him more
than kind of too, they would, ah, explore each other, kisses first, not big
ones like in the movies but sweet, and fondles later (he was mad to find out
about those curves, about how soft she was, about that bath soap smell when she
walked within two feet of him and that disturbed his sleep). Yes, he would put
his hands softy there, softly on those curves. Then Frank woke up with a start,
sweaty, a little confused, and a little flush…
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