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word Jack (nee Jeanbon, nee Ti Jean, nee everyman, every man, and every woman with the fire in the belly to write) bellowed out in the good
earth night, bellowed out in the night from the womb, bellowed about loneness,
loneness in crowds, and sign of the age loneness. Not loneliness, not on the
surface, not with Acre kidding corner boys crowding around (mostly French-Canadian boys who set the tone of the town, adieu this
and that, but some Irish and Greek boys too, especially man monk poet Sammy,
hanging around Leclerc’s Variety Store), Jack-crowding, small-breasted F-C loves (oohing ,aah-ing in the dark- haired angle
man thought )
swaying to Benny on the be-bop 1930s night and tossing and turning over Ti Jean
words and clowning arounds (and secret Irishtown girl love spoken of before and now done),
Jack-crowding, Adonis full field, full football field heroics, crowds cheering
against bread and roses fed arch –rivals, Jack-crowding, Village cafes, full,
chock full of the hip, the want-to-be hip, the faux hip, waiting, waiting on some
dark-haired golden boy to rescue them from the little box night,
Jacking-crowding, ditto Frisco, ditto New Jack City redux, ditto
Jack-crowding.
So not
loneliness he but lonesome cosmic wanderer from
youth as partner to the crowds, up in small, immensely small twelve-
year old bedrooms playing full- fledged leagues of solo jack baseball, sitting
solo in fugitive Lowell libraries reading up a storm from Plato to kinsman
Voltaire (via Acadian Gaspe dreams), sitting solo in some sigma phi dorm room
munching chocolate bars, vanilla puddings, great greasy sugared crullers after
hearty beef meals, as companion pouring over tales of greek gods and Homer,
sitting solo (hard to do, believe me ) astern ships on
big wave oceans ready to devour man, beasts and ship whole, sitting solo in
midnight slum New Haven rooms, small hot stove, coffee pot percolating, ditto
later in Frisco town, ditto in big sur town, ditto in Tangiers town, ditto down
in mere Florida town, ditto solo.
Ditto
too solo adventures on west coast work ship piers, solo sweaty dusty south of
the border Mexican nights adventures, solo brakeman of the world trackless
night adventures, solo sea sick sailor going to fugitive night adventures, solo
weird New Jack City 1950s beat scene adventures, solo big rock candy mountain
and the void adventures, solo stumble around Europe on a dollar a day
adventures, and solo mad cap late night chronicler of the hobo jungle world
vanishing adventures. And hence crowded solo lonesome karmic writings and big
word blasts, and smiling, smiling, maybe Buddha-like, at the
connected-ness of it, of the one-ness of it, of the god-like symmetry of it. And a Ti Jean kindred tip of the hat.
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