… she, Clara this week, maybe
Clarissa or Claire next week, or after the next bust, thought for a moment, for
just a moment, no more, she had no time for much more, what with her name, her
birth name, Clementine, Clementine Barrows, place of birth Northbridge, Kentucky down in the hills
and hollows of Appalachia, some nineteen years ago, coming up next on the court
docket, what was it for this time, solicitation, no, lewd and lascivious
behavior, whatever that was, that she was due for a break, a break from having
to pay attention to any man who would give her a look, from any guy who thought
he could go around the world on the basis of
a few cheap scotches (not even good stuff, Haig &Haig maybe, stuff
that a lady should expect of gentleman
and that she had developed a taste for), some fast talk and some fast
hands.
She could hardly believe that it
was only a couple of years before that she had headed west, headed for Los
Angeles, headed out to be a Hollywood star (everybody back home had said that
she had the looks, the Jessica Lange looks , to make it) or at least a starlet,
on that Trailways she picked up in Prestonsburg after that incident with her
father, his midnight creep up the stairs, and then that big blow-up with Lem
when he asked her to marry him. Christ she was only seventeen, only finishing
high school, only starting out with her dreams. She would probably have had two
kids and one in the oven by now if she had stayed.
Yah, she had no regrets about
leaving that scene as hard as things had been once she got out here and found that
fistfuls, bushels full, hell, acres full of
other young girls from Steubenville, from Astabula, from Moline, from
Fargo (all the Dakota cities it seemed like) were looking to be stars, or at
least starlets. Once she learned the ropes, knew the score, she got that job as
a drive-in waitress, until that night manager (really just a trainee night
manager) thought that putting her on the side of the drive-in where all the
valley guys sat their cars down on Friday and Saturday night to feast of
burgers and fries delivered by a tip-worthy young waitress meant that he could
roam his hands all over her, Then that foolish job (as she country girl,
country high Baptist girl brought-up before her mother died, blushed an innocent blush) so-called,
modeling, well not really modeling but showing herself naked, in the buff, for guys to look over at private
parties. She just couldn’t do it, couldn’t have a fistful of strangers, strange
men, oogling her and thinking whorish thoughts. Then nothing, no jobs, no
money, finally no room, and tough times even keeping herself fed, nothing for a
month or so.
Desperate, forget blushes (except
private look back country girl properly Christian brought up blushes), forget
man stares, forget everything except trying to keep off the streets after she
had nearly been molested one night when she slept out on the edges of Venice
Beach and a couple of guys had held her down before some guy called them off
and they ran. Then a while later she met Trixie on the beach as she was trying
to get a little sun to make her look less like some midnight troll, Trixie from
Norman, Oklahoma who had taken her own
Trailways ride west a couple of years before
her and knew the score, and knew that she couldn’t go back to Norman.
Trixie was, well she called herself a bar maid but what she was a prostitute
working the better bars in Santa Monica, the ones near the pier.
And so she, Clementine Barrows
born, now Clara, learned the ropes, learned how to take a man’s money without
public blushes. Learned how make a man pay for his around the world
pleasures. It had been tough, like now with
this soft bust soon to be taken care of by Artie, and some of these guys were a
little wacky, wacky in their sexual dreams, but she had gotten herself a room
before long, a room of her own, got off those damn streets, and got used to
what men had to give, which wasn’t much.
…yah, as her name was called to
go before the judge she thought she needed a break, needed it bad.
On the Rim of the World
Notes: words and music by
Malvina Reynolds; copyright 1973 Schroder Music Company, renewed 2001.
She inches along on the rim of the world,
Always about to go over,
How she can manage I never will know,
To get from one day to the other.
Scrounging a buck or a bed
Or the share of a roof for her head,
This nobody's child, this precarious girl,
Who lives on the rim of the world.
She looks like a
princess in somebody's rags,
She dreams of a world without danger,
Climbing the stairs to a room of her own
With someone who isn't a stranger.
But now she eats what she can,
And accepts what there is for a man,
This nobody's child, this precarious girl,
Who lives on the rim of the world.
She dreams of a world without danger,
Climbing the stairs to a room of her own
With someone who isn't a stranger.
But now she eats what she can,
And accepts what there is for a man,
This nobody's child, this precarious girl,
Who lives on the rim of the world.
She inches along on the
rim of the world,
Always about to go over,
How she can manage I never will know,
To get from one day to the other.
Scrounging a buck or a bed
Or the share of a roof for her head,
This nobody's child, this precarious girl,
Who lives on the rim of the world.
Always about to go over,
How she can manage I never will know,
To get from one day to the other.
Scrounging a buck or a bed
Or the share of a roof for her head,
This nobody's child, this precarious girl,
Who lives on the rim of the world.
Malvina Reynolds
songbook(s) in which the music to this song appears:
---- The Malvina Reynolds Songbook
---- The Malvina Reynolds Songbook
Malvina Reynolds
recording(s) on which this song is performed:
---- Held Over
---- Ear to the Ground
---- Held Over
---- Ear to the Ground
Recordings by other
artists on which this song is performed:
---- Rosalie Sorrels: Be Careful There's a Baby in the House (Green Linnet Records GLCD 2100, 1991)
---- Rosalie Sorrels: No Closing Chord; The Songs of Malvina Reynolds (Red House Records RHR CD 143, 2000)
---- Jane Voss and Hoyle Osborne: Pullin' Through (Green Linnet SIF 1044, 1983)
---- Rosalie Sorrels: Be Careful There's a Baby in the House (Green Linnet Records GLCD 2100, 1991)
---- Rosalie Sorrels: No Closing Chord; The Songs of Malvina Reynolds (Red House Records RHR CD 143, 2000)
---- Jane Voss and Hoyle Osborne: Pullin' Through (Green Linnet SIF 1044, 1983)
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