Short Book Clip
Lonesome Traveler , Jack Kerouac
Million
word Jack (nee Jeanbon, nee Ti Jean, nee everyman, every man with the fire in the
belly to write) bellowed out in the good earth night, bellowed out in the night
from the womb, bellowed about loneness, loneness in crowds, and sign of the age
loneness. Not loneliness, not on the surface, not with Acre kidding corner boys
crowding around, Jack-crowding, small-breasted F-C loves, swaying to Benny on
the be-bop 1930s night and tossing and turning over Ti Jean words and clowning
arounds (and secret Irishtown girl love
spoken of before and now done), Jack-crowding, Adonis full field, full football
field heroics, crowds cheering against bread and roses fed arch –rivals, Jack-crowding,
Village cafes, full, chock full of the hip, the want-to-be hip, the faux hip,
waiting, waiting on some dark-haired golden boy to rescue them from the little
box night, Jacking-crowding, ditto Frisco, ditto New Jack City redux, ditto
Jack-crowding.
So not
loneliness he but lonesome cosmic wanderer
from youth as partner to the crowds, up
in small, immensely small twelve- year old bedrooms playing full- fledged
leagues of solo jack baseball, sitting solo in fugitive Lowell libraries
reading up a storm from Plato to kinsman Voltaire (via Acadian Gaspe dreams),
sitting solo in some sigma phi dorm room munching chocolate bars, vanilla
puddings, great greasy sugared crullers after hearty beef meals, as
companion pouring over tales of greek gods and Homer, sitting solo (hard to do,
believe me ) astern on big wave oceans ready to devour man, beasts and ship
whole, sitting solo in midnight slum New Haven rooms, small hot stove, coffee
pot percolating, ditto later in Frisco town, ditto in big sur town, ditto in
Tangiers town, ditto down in mere Florida town, ditto solo.
Ditto
too solo adventures on west coast work ship piers, solo sweaty dusty south of
the border Mexican nights adventures, solo brakeman of the world trackless
night adventures, solo sea sick sailor going to fugitive night adventures, solo
weird New Jack City 1950s beat scene adventures, solo big rock candy mountain
and the void adventures, solo stumble around Europe on a dollar a day
adventures, and solo mad cap late night chronicler of the hobo jungle world
vanishing adventures. And hence crowded solo lonesome
karmic writings and big word blasts, and smiling, smiling, maybe Buddha-like, at the
connected-ness of it, of the one-ness of it, of the god-like symmetry of it.
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